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Worry
03:31
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Hey there, Mr. worry,
you cant take from me the morning
I am pretty sure the sun will rise again
It’ll warm the earth once more
And my soul just the same
So Ill hold on and trust the dawn is a comin
I cant make, the seasons change
Or put a single hair back on my head
I dont know why this is my story
But I am sure that I cant change it worry l
Hey there Ms. worry
my how you’ve been barking at me
telling me that it will always be this way
saying this failure is forever
I'm at its mercy like the weather
all would be better now if i just went away
Foxes have dens, birds have nests,
but where will the son of man go
Even when all is lost, or with all the worlds gold,
even Solomon knows
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42 Upland
04:58
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42 Upland and another night alone
Can’t believe this is real it’s more loss than I’ve ever known
Sitting by the fire just watching it burn
Thinking about all of the lessons learned
Here at 42 Upland on another night alone
Is it weak of me to just want this to end
I'll do whatever it takes I’ll break you know I’ll bend
Everyone says one day I’ll be fine
That spring surely comes after winter time
But this is 42 Upland on a winters night alone
Oh there’s some things you just can’t change
You give it your best and still at the end of the day
All that’s left is just to let it go I know I know
I’m learning let it go on 42 Upland Rd.
No leaves on the trees and the sun don’t seem to shine
But there’s gifts to be found even here in the wintertime
I can’t stop the questions from having a voice
But to be swallowed whole well i guess that a choice
Here at 42 upland on another night alone
Snow is falling again seems like it’ll never end
I've got this feeling that reconstruction could be a friend
But tonight this death is all that I can feel
Even though I trust resurrection is real
This is 42 upland on a winter's night alone
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3. |
I Was Sure
04:27
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I was sure I would change the world, I was sure I was different and more
I was sure this was a fairy tale story, back when I was sure
I sure that I would give up never, I was sure we’d be together forever
I was sure that we were meant to be, back when I was sure
The price of growing up, is the illusion of certainty
And the fantasy that my best is enough, is gone, gone and that’s a gift
Well if faith is what takes certainty's place
Help me accept this death and believe again
I was sure that being right was loving
I was sure i could change enough to change things
I was sure if I loved enough that would get us unstuck
Back when I was sure
I’m not so sure what to do now, now that I am not so sure
I hope that I am a kinder man, now that I am not so sure
The way don't seem so clear now, but it’ll be ok now
Even though I’m not so sure
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4. |
Last Words
05:00
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Wrote a card to her that morning
And I tried to say all that was on my heart to say
How I cherished all the years being her husband
And that I would carry sweet memories with the pain
Oh I wanted her to know that I forgive her
I forgive myself and in the end I’m just sad
No, I’m not trying to lay all the blame on her shoulders
I know I made mistakes and I’m sorry for that
Well they were my last words and my last chance
To make sure she knew I didn’t regret what we had… so I said
To His best I release you
And I don’t regret a single day we shared
No, this isn’t what either of us dreamed of
But I want nothing but good for you now
I can never be sure, but I hope she heard
My last words
I said I have loved you without regret or reservation
Even in the death that this will be
Oh I’m thankful for the time that we spent side by side
And I’m praying somehow that the best is yet to be
You might say, that was a little too late
But it was important to me, to get to say what I mean
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5. |
Future Looks Bright
03:59
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I know your heart is hurting
And you’re not sure what life will bring
Sometimes you feel like you just can’t go on,
But brother the future looks bright to me
So don't waste another day, asking yourself why
That’s an answer that we don't get on this side
Do what you can stay awake and keep your heart open wide
There’s beauty here, in loss and fear, I’ll be right by your side
And no brother, you’re never alone
I know there still so many questions
And no cheap answers can still the ache inside
I know the morning is something you just can't see
But brother the future looks bright to me
Unclench your fists, let go just a little
We’re not done, we’re just in the middle
One day at a time I’ll help you see what I see when I say
That brother the future looks bright to m
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6. |
Family Man
05:32
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When I was 5 years old in my kindergarten class
I filled out that first day sheet with all the little things that made me, me
Like how my favorite food was steak and that my best friend’s name was Craig
And I was happiest at the beach and playing in the waves
I told ‘em I was a middle child and that I liked it best when we all smile
and that I was thankful for my mom and dad, my brother and sister, too
Then it came time to answer to the one about what I want to do
When I grow up and I couldn’t wait to fill in that blank
When I grow up all I want to be
Is a husband and a dad raising a family
Other kids wrote astronaut, fireman
Or Peter Pan, but as for me
I had just one plan (and I still have just one plan)
I wanted to be a family man
Life moves on with no guarantee that it’ll go
The way we hope and that’s just life, living on this side
Somewhere along the way our dreams get lost or crushed beneath
Mistakes we make, hearts that break, and the sheer weight of life
Here I sit at 38 alone and lost and wondering
But the dreams of that little 5 year old they’ve stayed the same
Well I had a chance and it slipped away and I get stuck on what I could’ve changed
All I know is deep inside my answer still remains
I’m guessing younger you had a dream and maybe it got lost just like me
And you’re sitting there wondering if it’s simply just too late
Life don’t keep time and it don’t keep score all I can do is trust there’s more
Than what I see today, because if I’m honest I’d still say
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7. |
The Safest Place
04:07
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Take me away, take me away, Take me away with You
To a quiet place, where all is safe, take me away with You
Hide me in Your love the safest place
Quiet down my mind I’ll rest, I’ll wait
And look You in the eyes, no rush, no shame
It’s just You and me now, just You and me now
It’s just You and me now, just You and me now
No one knows me like You do, no one else loves me thru and thru
You’ve seen it all, You know every detail, no one knows me like You do
Hide me in Your love, Hide me in Your love,
Hide me in Your love, I need a safe place,
Hide me in Your love
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8. |
End of the Day
03:51
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Well good days and bad days they play with my mind
When I'm up I am loved, when I’m down I’m behind
That’s not a game you say that you play
Your love’s still the same at the end of the day
At the end of the day, I know that I'm loved
You’re with me and for me and God that’s enough
With nothing to earn now and nothing to prove
I’m held in the arms of a love I can’t lose
I catch myself thinking if I get this right
You’ll love me more, I’ll be clean in your sight
But You are not fickle and Your love is never swayed
By triumph or failure, by good or bad days
This self salvation project
Is exposed by my life shipwreck
Thank God this charade is over
In my failure I’ve never felt closer
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9. |
Lay It All Down
05:15
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I lay it down, You can have it all
All that I am, I give You all
All my mistakes, all of my shame
My disappointment, and all of my pain
You can have it all, I lay it down, You can have it all, I lay it down
I’m letting go, I lift my eyes
Leave it all behind, I just want Your life
I lay it all down, I lay it all down, I lay it all down
I’m holding nothing back from You now
I’m holding nothing back from You now
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Adam Paulson Palisade, Colorado
I do my best to write honest songs that capture something of the human condition - joy, sorrow, heartbreak and hope.
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